cptk's Diaryland diary

11:05 p.m. - 2019-05-02
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Thank you for today. I am thankful for the results of the scan. They did not see a brain tumor. I am thankful for the wonderful vet. I am thankful that I got to see geoffrey today and I’m so thankful he had a better day today. Please keep watching over him and helping him get better at his job. I pray that Blacky is able to settle down. She’s so riled up and antsy. I pray she’s cured from whatever is causing the anemia, the episodes and vestibular stuff, the ringworm, the diabetes and fluid in her chest. I pray she is not anxious and I pray she gets a good nights rest. I pray that Mama is nice to her and doesn’t hiss or growl. Please make them both get along and be peaceful. Please make Mama and Blacky stay away from one another. Please cure Mama from whatever is causing her eye problems and please please make her pass the hairball. I pray she is relaxed and happy. I pray for good health for both kitties.
Thank you for today.
We love you. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With love, hugs and much gratitude,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxoxo

9:34 p.m. - 2019-04-30
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Today was a weird day. I didn’t get much done at all. More things keep piling on and I’m trying to keep up. I’d say I’m not making the most of my time. Today was interrupted a lot. Finally talked to Patrick from Boston today. The one who is in Colorado. He seems like he’s got a lot going on and I hope I was able to help a little. Dr. Carvalho called. We can’t feed Blacky after midnight on her mri day. That bothers me. She likes her snacks. :(

I pray for help with things here. Please help me be a courageous mother and help me do the best things and to do them well for this family. Please cure Blacky from the anemia and whatever is causing it. Please cure her from the neurological things and whatever is causing her episodes. I pray she doesn’t have cancer or a tumor. Please. Please also cure her from the ringworm, the diabetes, the fluid in her chest and please cure her from her anxiety and stress. I pray she is comfortable for me to give her medicine, too. Please cure Mama from her eye problems. Please cure her from whatever is causing the eye problems. Please make Mama healthy and happy. I love them so much... please bring us peace to this home. Please make Mama and Blacky get along and please make them stay away from each other. Please. We love you. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With all our love, kisses and in need of comfort,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxoxo

5:04 p.m. - 2019-05-01
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Today is nauseating and hard for a few reasons. The dread of getting the MRI results tomorrow is killing me and eating me alive. I'm afraid because I know it's coming, and I'm afraid for Blacky because she is going to be so scared tomorrow morning, and I hate it. I hate all of this. I wish she was cured from everything and living a happy cat life here. I'm also nauseous because Geoffrey is not happy in his new job at Staples. I was so excited about him joining that I pushed him into applying and he is regretting it. I pray that he is able to acclimate and like the job. I know it's so hard adjusting and it's overwhelming, but I am desperately trying to find a way to help him. Please bless him with confidence and comfort him. I know it's a lot and he has so much going on... I just wanted him to be happy. Please help.

I pray with all I've got left in this heart that Blacky is okay and that we get excellent news and results from the MRI tomorrow. I pray that she is okay and does not have cancer or tumors. I pray she is healthy and that these episodes are benign. Please please cure her and deliver good news. Please cure her from the anemia and from whatever is causing it. Please cure her from the ringworm, the diabetes, and the fluid in the chest. I pray she is cured from whatever is causing all of these vestibular episodes and problems. Please help. Please ease her anxiety and worry and replace it with contentment and happiness. I pray she cooperates with medications and I pray that she is going to be okay tomorrow and that she eats tonight and doesn't try to eat in the morning. I pray for Mama and that she is cured from whatever is causing all her eye problems. I pray that she is healthy and happy, and able to pass the hairball. I pray she is comforted. I pray for peace in this home. I pray that they get along and that they stop fighting. I pray they stay away from one another and are happy. Please. <3

We love you and could really use your help. We know you are in control. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With love, faith and in need of your loving care,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxoxo

4:10 p.m. - 2019-04-28
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
My whole life now is about these little kitties and Jeff. I’m not sure if that was the lesson, teaching me how to be less selfish and thinking of others and my family first. That was what I learned with you Lucky. Love, patience and kindness. Somehow I lost it along the way after you left. Now I find myself thinking about how to make this house even better for the ladies. There is something really special about the feeling of loving someone so much that all you want to do is make their lives even better and happier. I kept thinking today how much both Mama and Blacky would love a sun room. How much they would love the open screens and sunlight, the amazing view of the back yard. I felt selfless for once in a long time. I know I’m not perfect, but I’m trying to do the right thing now and make up for it with all of this. I’m worried about the news we will get from the MRI. I’m not prepared even though I keep telling myself I am. I pray it’s nothing. I pray there is no cancer or tumor or anything that we can’t fix easily. We need a miracle and I’m here asking for one because this is in your hands.

We love them both. Please cure Blacky from these neurological episodes and problems. Please cure Blacky from whatever is causing the anemia, the ringworm, fluid in her chest, diabetes and anxiety. I pray she’s content and happy with us. I also pray she takes her medication with me very easily and well. I pray for help with the administration of it to go smoothly. I pray for Mama to be cured from whatever is causing eye problems. I pray she has healthy eyes. I pray that she is able to move her hairballs no problem and that she’s healthy and happy. Please be with us here at home and help us make this work. Please bring peace to this home and make Mama and Blacky stay away from one another. Please also make them get along.
I’m thankful today for the moments where I get to watch Blacky watch out the window peacefully watching the neighborhood. She seems so happy.
We love you. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With strong faith, love and in need of your loving guidance,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxoxo

5:19 p.m. - 2019-04-29
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
I'm pooped. For no good reason, either. It's not like today was particularly tiring. I'm having a hard time focusing, honestly and feel so incredibly fatigued. I bet it is diet related. My emotions are all out of whack, too. There is so much happening with McAfee and I'm trying to keep up with it. Part of my problem is that I have to rewrite some of my queries and fix things and frankly I don't want to do it because it stinks. That's a terrible reason but it's my reason for feeling overwhelmed and disinterested. My new therapist seems like a good match for me. She's sharing some stuff about herself and how much she puts into caring for animals and stuff where she lives. I really like her because she's human. She's talking to me about crying and trying to deal with kitties who have leukemia all the time. So thank you for guiding me to her; she's good.

I pray and will always continue to pray for Blacky and Mama. Please cure Blacky from whatever is causing her to be anemic, and from whatever is causing the neurological problems. I pray that she is cured from the ringworm, the diabetes and whatever causes the fluid in her chest. I pray she is freed from anxiety and that her nose heals. I pray for Mama that she is cured from whatever is causing her to have eye problems. Please heal her and help her to pass hairballs with no problems. I pray that she is happy and healthy and content. I pray for peace in this house; please make Mama and Blacky get along, and please make them stay away from one another. I pray for the strength and the courage to be all that these two ladies need. I pray for the hands to deliver the techniques necessary to medicate them and save their lives. Please be with me on this journey and teach me.

We love you, very much. <3<3<3xoxoxo

With love, faith and in need of confidence,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxoxo

11:11 p.m. - 2019-04-27
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Please be with us and come into our lives. Please heal Blacky from the episodes she is experiencing. Please heal her from the ringworm and cure it; please cure the diabetes, fluid in her chest and whatever causes the anemia. Please make her cooperate with medication. Please make Mama content and happy and healthy. Please cure her from whatever gives her eyes problems. Please bring peace to this home and make them get along. Please make MAma and Blacky stay away from each other and please make them love one another. We love you and we wish you were here. <3<3<3xoxoxo please take over the drivers seat.
All our love, hugs and kisses and in need of a miracle,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxoxo

7:15 p.m. - 2019-04-26
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
I’m a mess. The blood work test yesterday said that her blood is coagulating normally and the next step is to look for tumors. I’m terrified. I’m scared. I’m dead inside. I’m completely falling apart. I’m barely breathing and holding on to what little I’ve got left. Blacky is so sweet I worried she has a spot that looks suspicious on her nose. Please don’t let her have ringworm again. Please don’t let it be a spot. Please I pray make the ringworm go away forever. Please let her be okay and heal her and make her healthy and happy. Please cure her anemia and whatever is causing it. Please cure her neurological problems and make the episodes stop happening. I pray please, please make her healthy. Please cure her from the ringworm, the diabetes, the fluid in her chest. Please tell me if I’m praying wrong. Please help me give her medication and please make her cooperate. Please be with us here. Please make Mama happy and healthy. Please cure her from whatever causes eye problems in her. Please cure her from her hairball problem. I pray that Mama and Blacky get along and that they love one another. I pray that you make them stay away from each other, too. Please bring peace to this home. Please help me be a strong mother and please make me good at giving medication. I pray for a tremendous miracle. The medical news we received isn’t good, but I know you are supernatural. This is in your hands.
We love you. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With faith, love, and trust,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

7:47 p.m. - 2019-04-25
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Please take over and come into our life. Please come into our home and into our hearts. Please bring about a miracle; please heal Mama and Blacky from all their ailments. Medical reports for Blacky are not looking good, but we have faith you can supernaturally deliver her of the bad news despite what the medical team says. I pray she does not have cancer; I pray she is cured from these neurological problems and that she is cured from whatever is causing the anemia. I pray she is cured from the ringworm, diabetes, fluid in her chest and unhappiness. Please. Please also cure Mama from whatever causes her eye problems. Please make her healthy and happy. Please allow her to pass hairballs no problem. Please be with us and please bring peace to this home. Please make Mama and Blacky get along and please make them stay away from one another.
We love you, always. We need you and believe in your healing power. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With love, faith and in need of strength,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

9:52 p.m. - 2019-04-24
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Please make the appointment with Blacky go well tomorrow. I pray we get good news and I pray we don’t need an MRI. I pray this is nothing serious and that we can find a resolution. I pray Blacky is content and happy. Please make Mama not hate her when we get home and I pray for good results and good news. Please cure Blacky from the anemia and whatever causes it, the vestibular problems and their cause, the ringworm, fluid in her chest and diabetes. I pray she cooperates for medicine. I pray she is happy. I pray Mama is cured from whatever cases her eye problems and I pray she is able to pass hairballs no problem. Please make her get along with Blacky and Blacky get along with her. Please make them stay away from one another.
We love you and pray for good news and peace. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With love, faith and in need of miracles,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

8:36 p.m. - 2019-04-23
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Today Blacky had another episode that looked like a seizure. We don’t know why or what causes it. So I will keep this brief tonight because frankly, I feel dead inside.
I’m worried about her and all of these episodes. I worry things might go south quickly. I’m worried about going to sleep and everything.
Please send us a miracle and cure Blacky from whatever is hurting her. Please clear all her sickness and cure her and heal her. Please. You are the only ones who can save her. Pleas be with Mama and cure her eyes from whatever is causing her to have problems with them. Please cure this house and rid it from sickness.

We love you and tonight we pray for a miracle. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With faith strong, love and in need of hugs,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

7:11 p.m. - 2019-04-21
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Hi again,
We are back. Kelly stopped by. Haven’t seen her in a while and had a chance to talk like normal. I miss her in my life daily. She’s so wonderful and I love her. Maybe some day I’ll find it in me to go back to robyn. For now, I have to protect this family and my health. I forgive her, and feel deeply sorry for her, but can’t invite her into my every day life at this time. I pray for her today, too, that one day she can be free of her illnesses and return back to the girl who was my sister, not the diseases. I think part of me doesn’t want to keep creating more bad memories. I want to think of her as my sister.

I pray for Blacky and Mama. Please bless Blacky and keep her healthy. I pray she is cured this Easter Day of her ailments and whatever is causing the anemia. I pray she is cured from the vestibular disease, the ringworm, the fluid in her chest, diabetes, the anxiety and stress she feels. I pray she is happy. I pray for Mama that she is cured from whatever causes her eye problems and I pray they are perfect. I pray that she is relieved from whatever causes her hairballs and that she’s able to pass them. I pray for her to be happy and healthy and content. I pray, so much, for peace this Easter Day and all the days ahead. I pray Mama and Blacky get along and leave one another alone. Please I pray for help. Give me the strength to be the best mother to these ladies and the best wife to Jeff.

We love you. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With love, faith and passion,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

1:17 p.m. - 2019-04-23
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Why can't life work like it does on the doctor shows where the whole team figures out what's wrong with people and saves them? Why cant the vets figure out what is wrong and happening to Blacky?

5:34 p.m. - 2019-04-22
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
The rain feels peaceful today. Sometimes, I like the darkness it brings and the comfort. I think in a way it soothes the kitties, too. I hope. I pray. They both were relaxing in front of the heater today. It was super sweet and I loved watching them sprawl out. I am thankful for getting through today's work day and pray for the help to do the medicine myself tonight, as well as the insulin and that Blacky cooperates.

I pray that Blacky Is cured from all her ailments. I pray she is cured from the anemia and whatever causes it. I pray she is cured from the vestibular disease and whatever causes the episodes. I pray she is cured from the ringworm, the fluid in her chest, and the diabetes. I pray she is happy and content, comfy and relaxed. I pray that Mama is cured from whatever causes her to have eye problems. I pray her eyes are healed and perfect. I pray that she is healthy and happy and able to move her hairballs no problem. I pray that Mama and Blacky get along and that we have peace in this home. I pray that they get along, and please make them stay away from each other.

We love you, so much. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With love, kisses and warm rainy day hugs,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin xoxoxoxo

We love you. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With love, faith and passion,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

4:39 p.m. - 2019-04-21
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Kind of a weird Easter. Woke up with my period. Mama woke me up when it began which was amazing. Thank you Mama! It’s not been a great day truthfully. I feel like Blacky just isn’t herself. She ate some fluff. It’s just been weird. I pray that Blacky is comfortable and Mama, too.
Be back!
Love,
Kristin

6:18 p.m. - 2019-04-20
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Did I buy the room/house divider for the wrong reason? I got it so we could safely leave the house and do things together. I am becoming selfish though. I keep thinking I can go back to work and spend time there. Why do I want that? What is wrong with me? Why am I not capable of being content? I’m supposed to be here aren’t I? What’s wrong with me? I love mama and Blacky with my whole entire heart and I’m purchasing a thing that keeps them apart so I can leave. Why? I am mad at myself.

Today I let them into the basement for a bit. Blacky didn’t play much. In fact she’s been pretty quiet recently. She doesn’t seem like she’s feeling well. She seems on edge and uncomfortable and kind of unhappy. I’m worried. We have an appointment in a few weeks. I pray for her that we get amazing news. I pray that Blacky makes a full recovery and is cured from whatever causes the anemia. I pray she is cured from the ringworm, the fluid in her chest, the diabetes and whatever is causing these vestibular episodes. I pray she is happy and content and feels good. I pray for help with medications and I pray she is not aggressive I pray for Mama and that she is cured from whatever causes her eye problems. I am terrified that the basement foray will cause eye problems for her again, and I pray she doesn’t have them. I pray she is healthy and happy that we went down. Please bring peace to this home. Please make Mama and Blacky get along and please make them stay away from one another. Please.
Please deliver us a miracle.

We love you. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With love, faith and in need of comfort,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxoxo

7:33 p.m. - 2019-04-19
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin; Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Today was the funeral for Jeff’s grandmother. May she Rest In Peace and May she enter the heavenly gates with everyone.

Blacky worries me a bit. She’s seemed restless the last few days. I don’t know what’s causing that or why. I pray she’s content and happy. I pray she is healthy. I worry so much for her health. Please cure her from all her ailments. Please cure her from whatever causes the anemia, the ringworm, the vestibular disease, the diabetes and fluid in her chest. I pray she is not anxious or in pain or discomfort. I pray she is happy and healthy. I pray for Mama, and that she is cured from whatever causes her eye problems and I pray she has perfect eyes. I pray that she is able to pass her hairballs and that she’s comfortable and healthy. I pray for peace. Please bless Mama and Blacky and make them get along. Please also make them stay away from one another.
We love you. Life is precious. I miss you Nana; it’s hard seeing another grand parent go. I miss you so much. I know you wouldn’t be proud of who I am. Please know I love you and wish I were more like you. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With faith, love and in need of guidance,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxoxo

6:42 p.m. - 2019-04-18
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
I'm not really sure what to talk about today. The day was pretty normal compared to all days. The kitties were about the same as they have been. Mischievous and somewhat stalking one another. I pray they are good tomorrow for Mommy, their Nana. She is coming here to watch them while Jeff and I go to the funeral for his grandmother. I pray they are well behaved and nice to one another.

Today, I am thankful for the amount of sleep the ladies let me get last night. Mama let me use her as a pillow and it was so nice. She was incredibly cuddly. Blacky was a cozy cuddler, too. I loved sleeping with both of them. It was amazing. I pray that we have more night's ahead like this. Please also give them both comfort. The diffusers are running low and I don't have that much left in some of them. I'm getting worried the replacements are not going to be here in time!

I pray that Blacky is cured from all her ailments. I pray she is cured from whatever causes the anemia, the ringworm, diabetes, the fluid in her chest, the vestibular disease and her anxiety and stress. I pray that she is filled with happiness and good health. I pray for Mama, too. I pray she is cured from whatever causes the problems in her eyes; I pray they are healthy and perfect. I pray she is comfortable and happy and able to pass her hairballs no problem. I pray she is healthy. Please wash peace over this house and keep us happy. I pray that you make Mama and Blacky get along, and I pray that you make them stay away from each other. We love you, so much. Please be with us and give us grace. <3<3<3xoxoxo

With love, hugs, and kisses,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo...xo

7:12 p.m. - 2019-04-17
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Good day I think. Or at least better. We did not have much going on today which was nice. Tomorrow and Friday will be busy. Not looking forward to it. I’m nervous about leaving Friday. Liam will be here tomorrow. So much is happening all at once. I pray for patience and peace. Please keep this house peaceful and make Mama and Blacky get along. I pray Blacky is cured from her ailments. I pray she is cured from whatever causes the anemia, the ringworm, fluid in her chest, diabetes, the vestibular disease and all the anxiety. I pray she is happy and content and healthy. I pray for Mama. I pray she is cured from whatever causes her issues with her eyes. I pray she is cured from whatever causes her to be so itchy and have trouble moving hairballs. Please make her healthy and happy.

Please bless us with your tender love and care. Please bring happiness to us and please give me the skills to take care of these kitties independently.

We love you. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With faith, love and trust,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

Please bless us with your tender love and care. Please bring happiness to us and please give me the skills to take care of these kitties independently.

We love you. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With faith, love and trust,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

Please bless us with your tender love and care. Please bring happiness to us and please give me the skills to take care of these kitties independently.

We love you. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With faith, love and trust,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

8:47 p.m. - 2019-04-15
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Yeah, so, today. Really tough Monday at work. I had a heck of a time catching up and it felt like everywhere I turned was a problem or something extremely last minute. Not the most ideal situation. It got me into a bad mood, which I don’t like. I need to think clearly and go at some of this stuff with a clear head. Otherwise it’ll never get figured out. I’m happy that I did the medicine myself tonight. That was a big surprise. I pray Blacky is patient with me and that we can keep doing this together peacefully and without problems forever. I pray she is cured from all her ailments and restored to perfect health. I pray she is cured from the anemia, from whatever is causing the anemia, vestibular disease, the fluid in her chest, the ringworm, diabetes, and her anxiety and aggressions. I pray she is filled with contentment and peace. I pray that Mama is healed and cured from all her eye problems. I pray she is happy and healthy and able to pass her hairballs. I pray she’s content. I pray for peace in this home. I pray that Mama and Blacky get along and please make them stay away from one another.
We love you so much and need your loving comfort. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With faith, love and in need of love,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

8:22 p.m. - 2019-04-16
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
What a day. I'm feeling lousy and selfish and whiny. I definitely felt miserable for being down that Jeff is working M-F all the weeks ahead. I guess there is a part of me that needs to be somewhat normal, but then I feel guilty for not wanting to be home all the time with the two creatures who give me the most love. How do I cope with that? Am I normal? What is wrong with me? Work is kind of stressful lately. There is so much happening and I feel like I don't have all the time in the world to do it and I'm trying to catch up all the time...

Blacky and Mama stalked one another a bit today. They also gave me a lot of love. I am thankful that I was able to do the medicine today on my own, and that they let me sleep. Please continue to help. Pleas make Mama and Blacky get along and be peaceful. Please make them stay away from each other. Please give me the strength to do the medication on my own and I pray make Blacky be cooperative. I pray that she is comfortable with me. I pray that Blacky is cured from all the ailments she has. I pray she is cured from the anemia and whatever causes it, the anemia itself, the ringworm, the fluid in her chest, the vestibular disease, the diabetes... everything. Please ease her anxiety and fill her with contentment and happiness. Please, please cure Mama of whatever is causing eye problems. Please make her eyes healthy. Please I pray she is cured from whatever makes it hard for her to pass hairballs. I pray she is happy and healthy and that she is also content and happy.

We need you, I need you, every day. Please wrap your arms around us. <3<3<3xoxoxo

With love, faith and in need of patience,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo...xo

9:29 p.m. - 2019-04-14
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Overall not a bad day. A busy one for sure. I was able to get out for lunch. The ladies were busy busy today! We are all in the bedroom right now. Swapped the curtains out so it looks more spring time in the kitchen. It was really hot it felt today. Overall not bad. And Jeff made something called Monkey bread! So I declare a good day. I did the nighttime routine on my own. I’m still lacking confidence. And skill. Please help me continue to get better at giving medications and injections to Blacky and Mama (if need be). I want to be an amazing Mom to them.
Please blessMama and Blacky. Please cure Blacky from all her ailments. Please make her cured from the anemia and whatever causes it, the ringworm, diabetes, fluid in her chest and the vestibular disease and episodes. Please make her calm and peaceful and serene and cooperative with medications. Please cure Mama’s eyes from whatever is happening to them. I pray you please cure them from having problems. Please cure her from whatever makes it harder for her to pass hairballs. Please bless her and make her healthy and happy. Please bring peace to this home and please make Mama and Blacky stay away from each other and get along
We love and trust you. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With faith, love and entrusting in your guidance,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

10:04 p.m. - 2019-04-13
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Busy day it felt like. The ladies were kind of active and I got to meet the latest member of the family, Merek. He’s pretty cute. Babies look cute to me so I guess this is no different. It was nice to see Geoffrey and Stacey as well as all their fur babies. It was pretty great. I’m hoping that things can go well for us here. Blacky has another pill to the roster now to make her blood a bit thinner in case she was getting clots. We don’t know if that’s what causes the episodes we’ve seen, but I’m hoping this stops them. Poor baby. She does seem to be having tummy trouble from them right now. She’s laying on the floor. I pray with all my heart she is cured from all her ailments and that whatever causes the anemia goes away. Please make it stop and never come back. I pray she’s cured from that and all the vestibular episodes and whatever happened to her. I pray she’s cured from the ringworm, the fluid in her chest and the diabetes. I pray she is comfortable and happy. I pray for Mama, too. Please cure her eyes from all problems and keep her safe and comfort too. I pray she is able to move the hairballs in her stomach no problem and I pray she’s a happy lady who is healthy. Please be with us and bring peace to this home. Please. Please make Mama and Blacky get along and please make them stay away from one another. Please. We love you very much.
God, I know you have the final say no matter what the medical reports say. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With faith, love and trust,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

10:13 p.m. - 2019-04-11
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles. Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Today was a test of patience. I lost my patience a lot and I’m so exhausted so it’ll be brief.

Please cure Mama and Blacky. Please make them get along and please make them stay away from each other and have a peaceful night and day. I pray that you please cure Blacky from the anemia and whatever causes it, the vestibular disease and the episodes, the fluid in her chest, the ringworm, the diabetes and anxiety. I pray she is peaceful and happy. I pray Mama is cured from whatever keeps causing the eye problems and irritation. Please fix her eyes. Please make her pass hairballs easily and please make her healthy and happy.

We love you and need you. I need your help with medications and doing this on my own. Please be with us. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With love, faith and in need of confidence,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

5:00 p.m. - 2019-04-12
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Today we were able to get through all of the calls and not too many hiccups. AND! Geoffrey got a job offer at the home office! It's all coming full circle. He started before me, and now he's coming back with me. I'm really happy for him and his little family. The timing worked out, and I think he's going to be really great. Plus, on the days I'm there, I'll get to see him! So things are seemingly going so well for him and the family. That makes me happy inside. I think it's a change for the better and it will make me happy inside.

Blacky and Mama were really quiet for me, too, which helped in hosting these. Thank you very much for that! Please bless Blacky and Mama. I pray that Blacky is cured from all her ailments. I pray she's cured from the anemia and whatever is causing it. I pray she'd healed from the vestibular episodes and the vestibular disease. I pray she is healed and cured from the ringworm, the diabetes and the fluid in her chest. Please comfort her and take the anxiety away from her and keep her happy and content. I pray we have a good and successful pill delivery! Please, please cure Mama and her eyes and whatever keeps causing issues with them. I pray she's healthy and happy. I pray she is able to move her hairballs no problem, too. Please bring peace to this home and please make Mama and Blacky get along, and stay away from one another.
Thank you!

We love you very much. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With love, faith, and never ending dedication,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

We love you and need you. I need your help with medications and doing this on my own. Please be with us. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With love, faith and in need of confidence,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

7:30 p.m. - 2019-04-08
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Phew. Did the pill tonight. I was bad with both that and the insulin bit I’m trying and I can’t do this without you. How do people do this day in and out as doctors? How does anyone cope with this kind of stuff and take blood or give pills? And flawlessly? I wish I was good at this and I need your continued guidance and support. Please help. And please help Blacky to remain calm as we learn to do this together.

Please cure Blacky from whatever is causing her to have these episodes. Please cure her anemia and whatever is causing it. It’s riding the line of being anemic and not. Please cure her from the ringworm, the fluid in her chest, and the diabetes. I pray that she is not anxious and scared, but rather healthy and happy. Please be with Mama, too. I pray she is cured from whatever is causing the eye problems and I pray she’s able to move her hairballs no problem. Please bless her and please make her healthy and happy. I pray for Blacky and Mama to get along; please make them leave one another alone and stay far away from one another. We love you. And we need your loving help and miracles. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With faith, love and in need of guidance,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

5:44 p.m. - 2019-04-10
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
The good news about this morning is that my court order should go through so I don't have to continue going to court since Rob is deceased. That's a big sigh of relief going forward. I am mortified that it ever came to that, and I don't know that I'll trust another human again because of it, including myself. What a nightmare, and I'm glad it is finally over. I have that to be thankful for.

The morning was a little stressful; there were a few technical difficulties with one presentation at work, but we got through it. Somehow. It was a little crazy. Doesn't look good for me... oh well. It went alright in the end.

I am on my own tonight with the medication again for Blacky. I'm nervous as hell since I did terrible last night. Please guide me so this is painless and easy for both of us tonight and every night. Please please please. Help me do this flawlessly. I pray she is cured. Oh boy do I pray she is cured from all her ailments. Please prevent any further seizures/episodes from happening. Please I pray that she is healed entirely. Please cure her from whatever causes the vestibular disease, the anemia, the ringworm, the diabetes and the fluid in her chest. Please help her to feel calm and collected, happy and content, not anxious and unhappy. I pray for Mama, too. I pray her eyes are healed and cured from whatever keeps causing all of these problems. It's so sad to see her eyes start to water and close and not understand why it's happening. Please help. Please help her pass her hairballs with ease, and please help her to be happy and healthy. I pray for peace in this home. Please bless us with a peaceful existence; please make Mama and Blacky get along, and please make them stay away from each other.

Please help me be a better mother, more mindful and much better at medication administration.

We love you endlessly. <3<3<3xoxoxo

With love so strong and faith so deep,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

5:30 p.m. - 2019-04-09
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Ugh. Today has been kind of hard. Mama's eye has a thing, again, this time in the other eye (not the normal one). I don't know what's happening or why it keeps happening. I'm worried about it, definitely, and don't like this one bit. I tried and failed miserably to give her the eye drops on my own without Jeff's help today. She knows that I can't do it. She knew I was trying to and hid. Please help me learn to handle Mama and Blacky. I can't do this without Jeff and it's killing me. I pray nothing, absolutely nothing, goes bad or comes up while he's gone. It feels more frequent now. I pray for help and guidance, as well as a cure from all of these instances. Please heal and cure Mama's eyes from whatever is happening and from all future problems. I also know she is waiting to pass a hairball. I pray it passes with ease and that she is okay. I pray Mama is a healthy lady and happy. I pray she trusts us and that we get through this. I pray for zero aggression. I pray for Blacky to be cured from all her ailments, too. Please, please cure her from the anemia and whatever is causing it. Please cure her from the vestibular disease and whatever keeps causing these neuro episodes. Please cure her from the ringworm, diabetes, and fluid in the chest. I pray she is not angry or upset or anxious, but rather happy and contented. I pray for peace. I pray both Mama and Blacky get along and that they stay away from one another and keep a peaceful home.

We love you, always, so much. Please wrap your arms around us and help us handle this, one moment, one step at a time. Please be with us. Please help guide me on this journey to handling things on my own, too. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With love, faith and in need of help,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

PS- Please save the animals of the world. Saw a news story a moment ago about an abandoned pitbull who was emaciated and confined. Please, please make it end in the world. No animal deserves to be treated poorly. They are your creatures and all they want to do is love...

10:41 p.m. - 2019-04-07
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
I was listening to a podcast today about Elijah and being really forthcoming with prayers. So I’m going to come out and say it.
God, please show your greatness through this family. Please come forth and bring a miracle to us. Please cure Blacky from her vestibular disease and whatever causes it. I pray you cure her from whatever causes the anemia, the ringworm, diabetes, fluid in her chest, anxiety and stress. Please cure Mama’s eyes from whatever causes the reoccurring eye problems. Please heal her eyes. Please allow her to pass the hairballs with ease and please make her healthy and happy. Please please bring peace to this home. I am asking please keep Mama and Blacky away from each other and please bring us inner peace. Please make them get along, no issues.
I pray for the personal strength to overcome whatever problems I run into with giving pills. Help me be great, excellent at it.

We love you. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With love, hugs and asking for your greatness to shine through,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

9:19 p.m. - 2019-04-05
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Please be with us. Blacky is mad at me for giving the pill tonight. I know she will get better with me as time goes by, but I don’t know what to do. I gave her treats and she still hates me. Please help her trust me and help me do this better so it’s less stressful for all of us. I’m miserable. She’s miserable. We are all miserable and I wish I had the gift. I don’t have that gift. So what am I good for?
Please help us. Please cure Blacky and Mama from all their ailments. Please ease Blacky’s anxiety. Please cure her from whatever is causing the anemia and vestibular disease. Please cure her from the ringworm, diabetes and whatever is causing the fluid in her chest. Please be with her and calm her and ease her mind. Please be with Mama and cure her from whatever keeps causing the problems in her eyes. Please be with her and help her move her hairballs and please bless her with good health. Please make Mama and Blacky get along, and please make them stay away from each other. I pray for a peaceful day tomorrow even when Jeff’s friends get here. Please.
Bring peace everywhere.

We love and need you. Please guide me. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With faith, love and in need of your loving guidance,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

9:45 p.m. - 2019-04-06
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Today was incredibly hard. Blacky had something that looked like a seizure very early in the morning and it was so scary. We took her to Tufts right away, and they can't tell us for sure what happened. She was so scared and unhappy and out of it. I am worried, so worried about what the blood work will tell us, too. They took a lot from her and I'm just worried. Please let her be okay. Please make her okay. Mama had an eye thing today, too. I don't know if she's better or not, but I pray her eye heals. Two at once makes this so hard but I know we need to soldier on. This is all so incredibly hard. I don't know what I'm doing or what I'm going to wake up to. I have a hard time handling it all. Jeff stayed home with me today. He didn't have to do it, but he did, and that was so selfless. I needed him around. I need someone here with me and I need you all, too. Please surround us with your love and bring us goodness and peace.
Please cure Blacky from all of her ailments. Please cure her anemia, please cure the ringworm, the diabetes, the vestibular disease, and the fluid in her chest. Please be with her and calm her anxiety and fear. Please, please make her not have any more episodes like we saw today. I pray for Mama that her eye is healed. I pray whatever keeps causing these problems is cured. I pray that she is able to pass her hairballs no problem, and I pray that she is comfortable and healthy and happy. Please bring peace to this home. Please make Mama and Blacky stay away from one another. I worry Mama is going to attack Blacky because she smells different. Please take care of her and please make sure that they don't harm or hiss or fight with one another. Please keep them away.

We need you so much down here. We love you. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With faith, love and in need of your loving envelopment,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

Lucky, I am thinking about you right now and can't stop crying. I love you little guy. I miss you and all the joy I felt when you were here. Please be with me and help us get through these things with Mama and Blacky.

We love and need you. Please guide me. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With faith, love and in need of your loving guidance,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

11:31 p.m. - 2019-04-01
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
I’m still not sure what I’m doing with my life. I’m worried about Blacky. She was under the bed a bit today and that bothers me. I’m worried about her health. It’s possible she’s declining and I pray she isn’t. Please cure whatever is causing the anemia. Please cure whatever is causing her to not feel good. Please cure the vestibular disease. Please cure whatever is causing the ringworm, diabetes and fluid in her chest. I’m so worried and don’t know what to do. I never know what it’s the anemia. Please cure her aggression and anger and give her peace and contentment. Please cure Mama’s eyes from whatever causes them to have problems. Please cure her hairball problems. Please I pray Mama is healthy and happy. Please bring peace to this home. I pray Mama and Blacky get along and leave one another alone.
We need you and love you. Please give me strength. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With faith, love and tears,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

10:04 p.m. - 2019-04-04
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Today has been a wild, uncomfortable rollercoaster. It was an okay morning until it came time for me to give the pills a try again. I failed, horribly. Terribly. It was a mess for Blacky and I made her scared. I cried a lot, Jeff was upset with me, and no one was happy. The rest of the day was busy. Both ladies were up and down a lot. I'm not too sure what's going on with Blacky now. She hid under the bed after I attempted pill #2 (which I was able to do) but she won't come out. I'm worried. Please let her be okay.

I am also worried about May --the whole time Jeff is gone. I'm not ready and all I can ask is that you help me be ready.

Please bless Blacky and cure her from whatever is causing the anemia. Please. I pray she is comfortable and content. I pray she is cured from the ringworm, the fluid in her chest, the diabetes and vestibular disease, too. Please make her happy and please make her not hate me. I pray that Mama is cured from whatever is causing the eye problems for her. Please heal and cure that. I pray she is able to pass hairballs no problem and that she is happy and healthy. I pray for peace. Please make them get along and love one another, and please make them stay away from each other. Please. <3<3<3xoxoxo

And Mama is showing eye troubles. Please, no.
I feel defeated. I don't even want to wake up.

We love and miss you. <3<3<3xoxoxo

With love, patience, and in need of some curing and miracles,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

9:22 p.m. - 2019-04-03
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Thank you for the gift of a day. I am trying to be hopeful and optimistic, but more and more keeps coming this way. Jeff is going to Texas for a conference in a month, and I need help with medications and stuff with Blacky. I'm worried about all of this and being able to do it on my own. I have no faith in myself. I need your help to get through this and to administer the medications on my own. Please, please help me. I need the help to do this.

I pray that Mama and Blacky are okay. Blacky is once again under the best and I don't know why. It might be the vestibular stuff. It might not be; I don't honestly know. I pray she is cured from whatever is causing the anemia, the vestibular disease, the fluid in her chest, the ringworm, the diabetes, and her aggression and anxiety. I pray that she is cured from all of these and that she is healthy and happy.

I pray for Mama, too, that she is cured from whatever causes her to have eye problems. I pray that she is happy and safe and healthy. I pray that she is able to move her hairballs easily. I pray that we are able to get through this. I pray for peace in this home, that Mama and Blacky get along and love one another. I pray they stay away from each other and that we have a peaceful day.

Please bless us and be with us. We love you. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With love, hugs and in need of assistance,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

10:00 p.m. - 2019-04-02
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Today, I set my expectations low so I wasn't disappointed, and things sort of worked out. Jeff was home working yesterday since Bob has a lot of stuff that he wants Jeff to do, and he had to go in for a bit today, his day off, to make up the time. He's also going in super early tomorrow to Boston. Bit, he came home earlier today so I could get to work and see the renovation and that made me happy. It looks amazing and for the first time in a while, I feel invigorated about the company. I don't know what will happen in the next year or so, but I am inspired to know we are taking a chance. It gives me hope in a way.

Geoffrey and Stacey had their baby today, Merek Michael Thayer. A boy! I pray he is happy and healthy, and that he is welcomed into this world with open arms. I pray the fur kids at their home are as excited about this as them, too.

Blacky was a bit more active today. She was up and about; thank you. I pray that she and Mama have an amazingly happy day tomorrow, despite us getting up at 3:30 to do medications and stuff. It's going to be a challenge, but I am hoping for the best. Please be with us. Please also protect Jeff and get him to and from Boston safely. I pray that Blacky is cured from the anemia and from whatever is causing it. I pray she is cured from the fluid in her chest, the vestibular disease, the ringworm and diabetes. I pray she is cured from the anger and aggressiveness that we see sometimes; I pray she is happy and content and receptive to the medication. I pray for Mama that her eyes are cured from whatever keeps causing her to have a reaction; I pray she is free and clear of problems. I pray that she is healthy and happy, and that she is able to pass the hairballs no problem. Thank you for them in our lives. Please bring peace to this home and please make them get along and not go near one another tonight and tomorrow.

We love you, always. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With love, faith and in need of some comfort,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

10:01 p.m. - 2019-03-31
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Tonight will be brief. Not feeling well suddenly. Please cure Blacky from whatever is causing the anemia, ringworm, diabetes, fluid in her chest and vestibular disease. I pray she’s content and happy. She’s been acting off today; please help her feel better and happier. Please heal Mama, too. She’s been throwing up lately and having trouble. I pray she’s comfortable and healthy. I pray her eyes are healed and cured from whatever causes the problems she experiences. Please I pray her hairballs are under control. I pray for peace at home. Please make Mama and Blacky stay away from each other and get along.
We mode you. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With faith, love and an upset tummy,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

11:25 p.m. - 2019-03-30
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Today was busy. Cleaning and errand busy. We did kitty playtime in the basement and they were happy. Mama’s eye started blinking while down there. I pray that doesn’t turn into a thing. Please I pray she’s happy and that her eyes are cured. I pray she doesn’t have any problems. I pray her eyes are healthy and perfect. I pray she doesn’t have trouble passing hairballs either. She’s been throwing a lot of them up lately so I pray that’s a good sign. Things are working maybe. I pray she’s content. I pray for Blacky to be cured from whatever is causing the anemia, ringworm, fluid in her chest, diabetes and vestibular disease. I pray she’s content and happy. Not anxious and aggressive. I pray for peace in this home. Please make them stay away from each other and love one another.

We miss you down here. Jeff’s grandmother just went to heaven. Please welcome her.
Love you! <3<3<3xoxoxo
Faithfully, with love and hugs,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

11:13 p.m. - 2019-03-29
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Today was a good day I think. I know I’m forgetting stuff for work but overall, okay day. I’m worried about Blacky, though. She’s been reserved and not playful lately. She’s been sleeping under the nightstand or bed a bit more. I’m trying not to panic. Please cure her from whatever is causing the anemia, the ringworm, the diabetes, the fluid in her chest and the vestibular disease. She’s not interested in food lately either. Nothing but the dry food which isn’t good for her diabetes. Please help. Please relieve her stress and help her sleep. I pray for Mama too. She got up a big hairball today which is great. I pray her eyes are cured from whatever is causing them to have problems. I pray for her to be able to eat more and move through her hairballs no problem. I pray she is happy and healthy. I pray for peace. Please make Mama and Blacky get along and stay away from one another.

We love you. Be with us please. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With love, hugs and in search of wisdom,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

11:13 p.m. - 2019-03-28
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Well, today was my last day at work in person for the week. I think I’m okay with it. It’s been hard for me to get stuff done. I feel like I’m behind and forgetting stuff. Like I’m too distracted. I need to reassess what I’m doing. And I want to have a good day.
I pray Mama and Blacky have a good day tonight and tomorrow. I pray for a good nights sleep with the. I pray that Blacky is cured from whatever is causing the anemia. I pray she is cured from the ringworm, diabetes, the fluid in the chest, and the vestibular disease. I pray she isn’t angry or anxious. I pray for Mama. I pray her eyes are cured from whatever is causing them to have issues. I pray she is cured from all of that and I pray she’s able to move through her hairballs no problem. I pray she is healthy and happy. I pray that she and Blacky get along. I pray for peace. I pray they don’t fight or argue. I pray they stay far away from each other.
Please take care of us and please give me the strength to get through and not lose faith. Please help me give medications.
We love you. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With love, hugs and in need of confidence and focus,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

11:36 p.m. - 2019-03-27
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtles, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
Another day back at the office while Jeff is home. He’s been good to the kitties and I’m sure they don’t want me around anyway. Some days I miss being at work but I get more done at home. Things will go back to normal next week. I’m so tired. Can’t nap on these days.
Please bless and take care of Blacky and Mama. Please cure Blacky from her vestibular disease. Please cure her from whatever is causing the anemia, the fluid in her chest, the ringworm, the diabetes, anxiety and stress and aggression. Please bring her comfort and contentment. Please cure mama’s eyes from whatever causes them to have issues that crop up. I pray she is cured from whatever gives her a hard time with the hairballs too. I pray she is happy and healthy. I pray for peace. I pray she and Blacky have a great day, get along and stay completely away from one another. I pray we all sleep and have a good breakfast.
We love you. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With faith, love and in need of guidance and strength,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

11:12 p.m. - 2019-03-26
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Dear Lucky, Funstuff, Nana and Katie, Justin, Squirtle, Scruffy, Saint Francis, Saint Jude, Saint Anthony and God,
I felt better after going to work today. But I’m still frustrated and uneasy and tired all the time. All my fault.
Please cure Blacky and Mama from their ailments. Please cure Blacky from whatever is causing the anemia, ringworm, fluid in her chest, diabetes, and vestibular disease. Please cure her from whatever causes her stress and anxiety. Please heal her and bring her comfort and peace and relaxation. Please bring Mama healing too. I pray she is cured from whatever causes the eye problems she has. I pray she is able to move through her hairballs no problem. I pray she is comfortable and happy and healthy. I pray that they both get along and stay far away from one another. I pray they stop fighting and have a peaceful sleepy day tonight and tomorrow.

We love you and I need your strength. <3<3<3xoxoxo
With faith, patience and love,
Blacky, Mama and Kristin
xoxoxo

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